I thought it was a funny take on the “hey girl” that is ever so popular. I went on Pinterest to find several comedic pins that made me smile. The last few days, my mind has taken a different turn. I have had thoughts of marriage and dating. A friend of mine, who has a huge following and is a fellow blogger like myself, has publicly written a letter to her future husband and daughter. It has inspired me to do the same. So hard to put all of my thoughts on virtual paper. This is a person I have been waiting for my whole life. How would I convey my feelings? I will give it a whirl.
To My Future Husband:
I can’t wait to meet you. I mean, I can. But…it is not the easiest thing to do. However, it is something I have been doing for years. I sometimes picture what you look like in my head. And also this picture that God has given me of you. While I do things in my daily life, I wonder what you are doing. Who you are with? What makes you smile? All these questions bounce in my head. I look forward to the day our eyes lock. It may not be a fairy tale to every one. But to me it will be. Of course, I won’t let you know this right away. 😉 My heart has been hurt before. I have been burned by men in the past. But…in some odd way, I thank them. Because that heartbreak is one of the steps I had to walk through in order to find you. I am that much grateful to be with you. I have had nights full of tears. And then full of joy. Because I knew this day would come. I just believed it in my heart. God has been taking care of me and my heart a long time. So that it would be ready to experience this adventure with you. In the meantime, I am growing into the woman you need me to be. I’m sure once we join in our union, that I will still be growing. I want to be the best I can for you. I promise you I will remain virtuous in all that I am. I promise to keep praying for you. I don’t know if distance has separated us, but I know that God will make a way for us to meet. I am taking care of myself and fighting every day for hope. I also know it is not in vain. I am not the most adventurous. But I am sure that meeting you, dating you and being engaged to you will be an adventure. I know we will have fights and moments of sadness where we feel like giving up. But I will not give you up, no matter what. God has been preparing both of us for each other. And I hope to be the warrior woman you need me to be in times of sorrow and joy. I look forward to the day where we create a life together. Another life. A beautiful baby. That is a display of our love and God’s love for us. I am not perfect, nor do I expect you to be.
I can’t wait to get to know you. I can’t wait to hear of your passions and dreams. I can’t wait to have long conversations about faith, politics, family. I can’t wait for you to meet my friends. I can’t wait to have double dates with them. I can’t wait to take pictures of our experiences. I will be shouting my love from the rooftops for you. Like I said, I am not adventurous. But I am willing to go outside of my comfort zone and take on new challenges. I hope we can one day write songs together. I hope we can get inside each other’s heads and inside each other’s worlds. Even as I write this letter, it fills me with tears of hope. When I think of you, I smile.
I hope you are safe. I hope you are keeping yourself pure. And even if you are not right now, there is grace. I will not judge you by your past. I will love you for all the days of my life and if I’ll keep my hand on your heart and your heart on mine.
For forever more and always more,