The god of approval

I know I’ve been slacking as far as blogging goes. My computer crashed. I had to get a tablet. I’ve been trying to keep up with my job. I was driving to work and praying. I was just opening my heart to God. My first thought was….”If only they could see and know you like I do. If people knew the depth of your love. If only every one thought of everything that has happened in their lives. And thought about the driving force behind it all.”

People have bouts of illness. Some people survive it. People have car accidents. People give birth. Who do you think is the miracle worker in all of that? I know the human body is capable of a lot. And the science proves it. But….who created the human body? Who helped you survive that accident. Doctors, while they are the hands that heal..are not God. They are used by God. God performs his miracles through them, as well as through us. He is the surgeon and they are the instruments.

Too often we give man credit for what God does. We think we can do it on our own. But…if we are truly honest we would realize we can’t.

I know this because I used to believe in the mentality that I can do it all on my own. However, the older I get, the more my dependence for Him grows.

The Holy Spirit posed this question to me and I will ask you the same thing.

Are you living for the god of approval or..are you living for the approval of God?

Sometimes we can get caught up in ourselves. Sometimes our insecurity can get the best of us. I catch myself liking the attention I get when people like me. I can’t help it. But..I dont live for it. It used to give me a false sense of definition. I sought for the approval from guys. From girls. And it is a shallow way of living.

To live is Christ to die is to gain”

It means that you die to the approval of others and you live as he did. Jesus did not once seek popularity or fame. He ruffled the feathers of those dabbling in superficiality and religiosity. Do not conform to what the world says you should be. Do not change yourself for someone. Unless its for God. No one else’s opinion matters but His.

If you always live to please others, you will fail to please Him. And in return feel emptiness. You don’t have to earn God’s love. And you shouldn’t have to earn someone else’s. If you are feeling that way, then that is not true love. True love is unconditional. And grace allows that freedom. Get it in your head now that you will not make everyone like you or love you. Its not worth it. It is tiring and painful. Live to please Jesus and that will be pleasing to your soul.

He paid the price and you are priceless!! That is worth living for. Nothing else.

Jumping Hurdles…

I have nothing “spiritually wise” to say right now. Lol.

So, my first week at my new job was rough. There were a lot of challenges. Alot to remember and do. Always having to think. Always having to remember things. Which is not bad. It is good to keep your brain active. This is major multi tasking. But..I am starting to get the hang of it.

And yes…some people can be headaches. Especially me I’m sure. But it is worth it. I am finding contentment in my job as hard as it feels. I feel like God is showing me how capable I really am of whatever I put my mind to. Once I got past my breakdown.

After the breaking comes the beauty.

I am trying to be a light. Trying to be Jesus. It isn’t easy. Because the old me wants to revert back to being completely accepted by the world. However..popularity is not worth more than salvation. So..who cares??? I will not conform. I will just be myself. I will be God’s queen. He will do the ruling and the reigning. As long as I let him be the one with the “reins” and not myself.

This Is Not The Job

I apologize I haven’t blogged in a little while. I usually only blog when God reveals something to me or I have received a revelation. Well…since He blessed me with this job, I have been struggling to find my quiet time. My spiritual time. When I am spiritually weak, I am even more physically weak. When my spirit is charged, I find my physical gets recharged too.

So the week I started, I woke up and I heard this voice that said “This is not the job.” I don’t think it means in the literal sense. I think it has a deeper meaning. In my mind, I don’t see my job as THE job. THE JOB for me is to find people who need Jesus and lead them to him. That is the ultimate job. It should be every Christian’s job.

A job working for a corporation or business can involve stress, fatigue, pressure, low pay.

A job working for God can involve helping someone find a spiritual breakthrough. Peace. Clarity. Guidance. That is priceless.

There are people I work with who need Jesus, if they don’t already have Him in their lives.

So “my job” isn’t the job. It is a means of making money. The real job is leading people to Jesus. Witnessing by my actions. My words. My declaration of faith.

I have been working there for a week. I have been challenged since day one. These are challenges I feel I cannot face on my own. I told God that I cannot do it without Him. It is a lot that I have had to learn in only 4 days of training. And truthfully, I had a really hard day today. But I know his mercies are new every morning.

I need to remember that “This is not the job.” That doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t do my very best and try my hardest at achieving the goals. It just means that I was sent and given this job not just to be blessed myself. But to bless others. I just have to face this next mountain. Once I make it to the top, I will see the majesty of my faithful God. Even when I don’t trust myself, I have to trust Him. Even when I don’t see myself complete, I know that with Him I will be. 

There is a bigger mission than getting a bigger paycheck. There is a purpose for everything and I’m determined to dust my feet off and keep climbing the mountain.

Take care loves,

-M